2 Corinthians 5:17

"...The old life is gone; a new life has begun!"

NLT version

Happy Letting Go :D

I love this song. My friend sent me the mp3-piano-version of this one when he read my blog. If you are struggling about something right now I am asking you to digest and Understand the lyrics. It helped me somehow.

Letting Go

by Gary Valenciano

I used to feel the emptiness inside me
I was not supposed to feel that way
I had everything I needed
But nothing ever made me
What I longed to be
The wealth, the name
The lights, the fame
Were everything to me
And then one night
Out of the blue
I heard His name (Jesus)
And so I took that step of faith
And walked into His domain
I believe that's what He wants
Every heart to do
When hard may seem the task
One step is all He asks of you

Letting go to know the truth
Is not so hard to do
It's the heart that's got the will
To open up for Him to fill
And trusting and believing Him
Is all we've got to do
It's just the heart that's got to move
For Him to show His love that's been there
Even when we never cared
Take hold of His hand
Let go and you'll understand

Why be afraid
For God knows what you're feeling
But even He can't do a thing
If He sees the heart's not willing
And so we ask what's going on
We want what's right and still do wrong
When hard may seem the task
One step is all He asks of you

I guess by now you'd realize
You can't be on your own
And all your cares
And all your burdens
Should be cast upon His throne
Letting go, just let go, letting go
Let go and you'll understand
Just let go and you'll understand

One Sun, Three Stars

For more than two days now, my country, Philippines is experiencing another disaster where 90% of Metro Manila area and other provinces nearby were flooded and still experiencing floods as of this very moment. These floods are not from a typhoon but according to PAG-ASA DOST it is caused by Monsoon rains. Here are some pictures of the flooded areas in MM.

disclaimer: pictures aren't mine. I got them from facebook.

University of Sto. Tomas

UST Hospital almost reaching the 2nd floor

Somewhere in Makati

Amidst all these, Filipinos can still manage to be resilient

Always ready to extend help to those in need of it.

Witty people.

I have learned so much from this. I appreciate how Filipinos work together and show optimism despite of. I hope we understand that it's not because of God's wrath that Philippines suffer this much. It's not that we, Filipinos are too sinful that He used floods to punish us. God is out for our good. I hope that through this unnamed habagat, we were able to learn something. I hope we learn to dispose wastes properly, plant more trees, stop illegal logging and start trusting that by God's Grace we will be able to rise up again. Stay proactive and resilient, Philippines. I am proud :)

Everyday

This is hard. I miss you every day.

:(

You are my Way Out

     

           For a very long time, I was wishing to really find a way out from being in distress, which is due to me feeling that I, a princess, was abandoned by her prince.

          When he left, I was so mad, so angry, so hurt. I was hurt that I didn't even see that I was already drowning myself to a sea of bitterness and insecurities. My mind's focus before was to win him back and save him from the witch that wants to poison his mind. I held on to the idea that he doesn't like me anymore, that he already found someone else. I tried and tried to save the relationship. I really did my best that I even ran after him a lot of times that it didn't matter to me what other people say about me. I want to tell this because that's the fact. We were together for almost 4 years, therefore it was hard for me to let it go and I couldn't stop myself from thinking how sayang it is for me to give up just like that, plus I was worried about what my life would be without him (so worldly, right?)

          But the more I try to make it better, the more it gets worse. I never really understood why he left and why our relationship ended. I never expected it to come nor wanted it to happen, but it did. I tried to let go. But each time I tried, I failed and I hated myself even more.

         Until one Thursday, I decided to skip work because I am really down and depressed, and I can't take the pain anymore. I really didn't know what to do, or wait, maybe I did know what to do, but I kept on denying it. I kept on denying God. But that time, I was totally helpless that I just broke down, cried and surrendered everything to Him. I can't really explain very clearly, but at that moment I felt His comfort and that He's unloading every pain and burden in my heart. He opened my eyes which were blinded by uncontainable emotions and my false hopes from the past. I realized that I was already making an idol, substituting him and choosing him over God. I loved him more than I loved God. I acknowledged my shortcomings to God and repented. And at that very moment, I felt the joy I lost for the longest time. I find it hard to explain how I felt after, but what I'm sure about is that the thing i just did was my first step in letting go.

       I now understand these things he told me before.

• He doesn't appreciate the fact that I love him more than I love God.

• He saw our relationship was not healthy anymore because it doesn't glorify God.

• He wants me to be independent from him (since he became my world) but dependent to God

I saw the need to fix our relationship with my own will and power while he saw the need to realign our lives to the will of God. God saved him from the witch and that witch turned out to be me.

      I know the battle doesn't end here. I honestly admit, I still miss him and I'm always tempted to keep in touch and tell him all there is to tell, but I know that if I do it, it will not help us both, and things could get worse. I still feel the pain, and I know I am still on the process of letting go, and this is a long process for me. But I will find joy in waiting because I have the assurance that God is filling every empty corner of my heart now, slowly but surely. Even if some things are not clear to me yet, I will still trust Him and enjoy these unexpected turn of events.

      This is a major breakthrough in my life that I am blessed to have. To quote Ptr. Tan-chi of CCF, "When you are disappointed in life, don't jump into conclusions but learn to appreciate the presence of God instead."

"Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord." 

Psalm 31:24

08/02/12

 

Blogging with a Twist

You give JOY

I just want to share how God works in my life in every single day. I'm not the usual blogger who writes good and who knows like every word in the dictionary. I'm a simple-trying-hard one who wants to tell to the whole world about how good God is in my life. And I tell you this now, pardon my grammar sometimes. haha 

I blogged several times before to different blog sites but not regularly. I just blog when I feel like doing it or when I am too overwhelmed about something. But most of the time I blog when I get hurt. I saw good things about it, one is that whenever there is no one whom I can talk to with ,I just write everything and let the cyber world do its work for me. Another one is, I can right every lesson I learned and I could look back to it anytime and evaluate how my life is doing and going. Okay, much has been said already, to make the long story short, one thing in mind that I really want to do right now is to continue blogging. Not just blogging, Blogging with a new twist. I will blog with the purpose of sharing God and how God is working in every single details of my life.