perfect love

I am in a world where independence is the only key to make you survive. This place is of total difference in that of where I grew up. I can't compensate. How will I alter everything. But one thing I know is for sure. God placed me here with no friends, no people to comfort me,(as if everybody is against me) because GOD wants me to appreciate Him and appreciate the people who I could only count with my fingers.

"And until love is stirred, let God's love be enough for you. There are seasons when God allows us to feel the frailty of human love so we'll appreciate the strength of his love." -max lucado (a love worth giving).

He is my key to survive in this chaotic place God has placed me. If I get hurt, God's protection is enough. If I fall or stumble, God's GRACE is overflowing. I do not need other people. God's love will be enough.

NO to self consumption

Have you ever felt the feeling wherein anything you do seems so time consuming yet you still feel something lacks or not enough? These past days, I've been craving for something to do which is that, I do not know. I feel so mediocre. It seems like I use my time on things with no value. It is plain. And I don't feel any excitement like before. No "I-am-stoked-about-something" feeling and it is like burying your self alive in the bottomless pit where in you could not breathe. The feeling of no-other-people-around except me and my shadow is lingering through my nerves time to time now. I cry often. I think about how will I get out, stay away from these emotions. I am stressed out. I think by brain will just burst anytime.

I know I am empty. I am hungry. I am thirsty. To make it profound, I am emaciated. I virtually comprehend why I feel this way, I am just ignoring it. I am just refusing to filter it because of this ego inside me. And again Lord, you never fails to use Your rod for me that keeps on reminding me to stop being naive about Your works. I now understand why I feel this fatal situation, it is because I am not allowing God to rule again in me. I always focus myself on the mini-me that caused me to be blind about those greater things God has prepared ahead for me. My works were wretched because my hands are not working for Him and I am not considering the works of His hands. My thoughts seems so disturbed because my focus is merely on myself alone and not to Him. My emotions were breaking down because I am not letting Christ deal with it when He should be the one doing it. I know, it is clear. GOD wants me to say no to self consumption. To remove myself from my eye and FOCUS on my Savior alone.

I was clueless before but now I can comprehend better. Credits to my Master.

A love that RUNS deep.

You are the reason why I really know God is good to me. When all else fail, I just think of you and a thought of you keeps me moving. I love you!
I know I will always be your little girl. Thank You for you love. I really appreciate your SILENT love. I know I always have a kakampi in you. I am your number ONE fan papa! >:D<
words aren't enough to say how I feel. I wish I never left home. I wish we're all together everyday in one house.
THANK YOU! I LOVE YOU! I MISS YOU!

breakdown

I'm going through extremes to prove I'm fine without you, but in reality I'm slowly losing my mind, underneath the 'guise of smile gradually I'm DYING inside.

churchill thoughts

"if you can't run walk, if you can't shout talk, but by all means, keep moving"

Winston Churchill

amisyulayk CUH-REY-ZEE!

NOT! :))
And who says tagalog movies are BADUY? (well, for some maybe) GAH! Just watched this film and of course, I am wee too emotional so I cried (and that's normal).

I do not see myself in the movie, I am not in the situation where in you have to choose between torns but the point is I learned something. And that to not rush things because you want it to happen right away.It is never easy to push yourself towards something that you want to last forever when you know that it can't be or the other party wants to flake out already. God has His perfect time, no matter how rough the road you and your loved one will be taking, when God planned it to happen, it will happen. And it is proven, good thing comes for those who wait, just like what happened to Mia and Allan.



ok. enough said.

so yeah!

This will be my new blog site. Rants, sentiments, complaints, words of happiness and all you MIGHT read in here. But, I LOVED MULTIPLY FIRST :) ellipses. 'till next time ;)